I am HUNGRY!

Good grief! I think I may be starving. LOL I have not done well so far. I have eaten two tater tots, and two crackers with peanut butter. Yes, peanut butter. It doesn't get worse than that. I know some of you are thinking, it's only tater tots and crackers. But understand me when I say....that is where it starts. If I allow myself to say it's OK, then I will push it farther. Here we go, the mental part of this game. I will be taken over with guilt before the night is over. My husband usually is the barrier between me, the stress of the kids not wanting to go to bed, and food. Unfortunately, he's not here tonight. He will even get up in the middle of the night if one of the boys is hungry, just so I won't be tempted to cheat. I may end up having a peanut butter and jelly sandwich and a beer. Sounds gross, but I mean it. If I am still hungry after I have my last approved snack, then I just might do it. My workout was so intense today. That has to be the reason I am so hungry.

  This week is going to be tough. I am mixing up my workouts and doing a little more high intensity. The last time I did this I was tired and hungry that week. Today is no exception. I have been hungry and tired. I did a little ballet today. I have not been doing it like I had planned. I practiced in my heels. Everyday I have to do something for the show. It's just time to get focused.
  I met with someone today to have custom extensions made. Wow, hair is expensive. On average, $80 a package and I will need at least two packages of hair. Donna Granberry is making them for me as a favor. It will just cost me the price of the hair. I am so thankful for her generosity. I can't wait to get them. I will revisit this again next month. For now it just helps to have a plan in place.
  I have not heard from the lady who is making my suit. She was supposed to send me some fabric color samples but I have not heard from her. This is just one more thing I have to take care of this week. I like to check things off my list and I can't do that yet.
  It's 10pm and off to bed I go.

My First Cheat Day!

  Cheat day has arrived. I have not really craved much till today. I woke up and had to fix breakfast for my Sunday school class then head out of town to work. 2 hours one way. This was going to be a long day for sure. I packed up my food and started my day. My first little cheat was just a small amount of my breakfast casserole. Doesn't really matter how small the portion size because it was loaded with fat. I should know, I made it. I managed to stay on my diet, but I didn't eat all I was supposed to. By the time I got into town, around 5pm, I was pretty hungry. I was craving a greasy burger, so I made a stop to Juicy's. I then headed to Whataburger to get a small chocolate malt. So all in all, I had some cheese nachos as an appetizer, a burger, (actually a half a burger) I couldn't eat more than that and my malt. I may have some chocolate before the night is over. But all is good. Back on it tomorrow.
  I should have taken some pictures this morning, but I was running behind. Tomorrow I will probably be bloated like a whale, but I will get some up this week for sure.
  I know there are some of you who want to know what my diet looks like. To be honest, you will probably be disappointed. It's not rocket science, it's just CLEAN.
  This is what I have been eating for the past two weeks.
Breakfast: 1 egg 2 egg whites and grits Snack: protein shake and banana Lunch: Chicken (or Fish) rice, and veges, Snack: protein shake, cottage cheese and yogurt, Dinner: Same as lunch, Bedtime Snack: 1 egg 2 egg whites.


  That's it.....see....no miracle involved, just clean eating. The key is to stay full. Don't allow yourself to get hungry. Try it and let me know what you think.

Today was weight and body fat day. I am down to 118.5 from 121 and 17.9% body fat from 20.2%. I gained a pound of muscle and lost 3 lbs of fat (almost). So that is very good news considering I have really been on the diet for 1 1/2 weeks and not a full two. Good news always motivates me. That's why I think it's so important to go to a trainer while you are training for a show or just have a goal you are trying to attain. I only meet with him every two weeks, but he holds me accountable. Yes, my husband has learned to measure my body fat, but it's just not the same.

So what now?  Basically, I was told to keep doing what I am doing. We discussed my diet and how many calories I am actually taking in. While I have always taken in 1600 calories a day in the past during this diet, this time it's more realistic to say I am taking in 1500. Difference is, I am not feeling hungry. So we just keep it like it is. No sense in changing something that is working.

I will be changing my workouts a little next week. I like to switch things up a lot. I find my body responds better to frequent changes. I will be doing more reps on my weight training for 3 days and high intensity weight training for 2 days....AND NO, I am not doing cardio at this time.

I am due for a cheat meal this weekend, and today I am not craving anything. If this continues to be the case, then I will just cheat when my body is ready. I am almost positive cravings WILL hit me.

OK, so there was no Bison left, but I did find a small 2.7 oz round eye (eye of the round) piece of meat. Can you tell I really don't know meat? I picked it out based on the fat content. So it may be a bit higher in fat, but I didn't have a whole lot. I also had a small red potato with a small amount of hot sauce, asparagus, and a small salad with Walden Farms Raspberry dressing and I added a few blackberries. I usually have fresh asparagus but chose canned for tonight. It's loaded in sodium so I rinsed them before heating them. My belly is full and I am happy.

Struggling today! I am so hungry, but I do not want to eat chicken or fish. I am also very tired. I am craving FAT! I have not caved and I won't. Weigh in is tomorrow and I don't want to feel bad in the morning. What to do, what to do.....Bison. That's it. I have some left over Bison from Sunday night. A 3.5 oz filet or whatever you call it is only 3gms of fat and less sodium than frozen chicken tenders. Oh I hope my husband didn't eat it this week.

Today was a bit different than the rest so far. I was actuallly hungry today. I think it was because of what I had for breakfast. Instead of my 1 egg and 2 egg whites with my grits, I had my protein shake with my grits. I was hungry the rest of the day all day. I was able to have a little sushi which was nice. I am counting the days till my cheat meal...will it be Mexican?
Got a great workout in and did my Ballet today. Looking for a good place to do some rollerblading. My back porch just ain't workin.
Got in my heels tonight and I am just trying to get used to the 5 inch heels. My shoes are so uncomfortable. I hate to go spend more money on other shoes, but surely there is a shoe that won't make my feet cry.
Something I want to talk about in one of my future blogs is the cardio debate. How much are you supposed to do when training for a show? How much do I do? I'll share that later.