Mission Accomplished

Well, it's over. I competed on June 24th and place 2nd in Master's Bikini and 4th in the open. The 4th place finish qualified me to compete at the National level. I was thrilled where I placed. Competition was fierce at this show. I didn't see any cellulite on anyone backstage. They all really did look amazing.

I was extremely nervous at this show. Most of the girls love love love to be on stage. Me, not so much. Before I went on stage I wanted to kick off my heels and run out the door. I am not joking. I am so uncomfortable with being the center of attention. I am fine to walk on stage with the group, like we did at the night show, but it is a different story when I am alone. Watching the video back, I didn't look that nervous. I think that's because all that practicing over and over kicked in and I did it out of habit. I feel those nerves right now just replaying it in my mind. I got through it, and that's what matters. So why do I do it? I love love love competition. More than anything, I compete against myself. Can I look better than I did in the previous show? That's what I am after. The thrill of the competition.

I have only received critique from two of the judges so far. One said I am a little too skinny and that I could probably stand to have some overall size added and it probably would not affect my glutes. The other said I could perhaps be a bit leaner and he didn't like the color of my suit. I thought about it and these seem to contradict each other, but I think I know what I need to do. Put on more muscle (too look bigger) (especially in the legs) and come in more tone. It was brought up again about my waist...they like a "curvy" look. The only way I can physically accomplish this is to make my legs bigger (if I can). Reality is, genetics plays a big role in muscle growth and I just don't know if I can physically get there.

Aside from all this, I just don't know what I want to do now. I am usually pumped up after a show, especially after doing this well, and that's just not the case right now. I am not quite sure how I feel at the moment. Time will tell.

Here are a couple of my pictures from the show. You can also go to rxmuscle.com and look up NPC Greater Gulf States to see all the pictures of the competitors.